maybe we can make it alright...

we could make it better sometime, maybe we could make it happen baby we could keep trying but things will never change... so i don't look back.

=/ I've abandoned you so vehemently and i apologize.

recently i had a conversation with a friend and i was stating how boring my life has become because I'm not the person i used to be, his response was that my life isn't boring, it's just that I'm getting older and nothing stays the same. when i was younger i never wished to be older than i was like most kids do, i wished for the complete opposite. i never wanted to grow up, i still don't. Life is hard and honestly I'm not ready for the challenge. I look back to a time in my life when i lived carefree, I'm sure there were things that i should have been worrying about {i.e school} but i didn't, and instead i lived each day like it was my last, never missing a day fun filled whether anyone liked it or not. i always felt like i was growing up too fast and having too many difficulties thrown at me at such tender ages. I've always had to deal with things that a typical teenager my age shouldn't, which was why i covered up all my struggles and pain with silly things like partying, boys, fights;etc.
I sometimes miss the person i used to be because i was more easy going and more of a life of the party than i am now, but when i think back i realize that those things won't be fun now because I'm not a kid anymore and i have real responsibilities to deal with and although life's too short i still have to somehow make it here. and I'm pretty sure that partying and drinking won't get me anywhere else than to a broke end. So with that being said, take me as i am, Izzy plain and boring =].

song: "with every heartbeat"-Robyn