relax into the need...

we got so comfortable, remember when i was so strange and likable, i just want back in your head....

quietly personable?
what does that even mean?
i have a cousin that calls me annoying
and a friend that says I'm too loud.
i have a sister that calls me a bitch,
and my mom says i hardly speak.
my best friend says I'm so silly
and i have a crush on a guy that says I'm too shy.

i hate raising my voice, but i can't stand not being heard.
sometimes, i try to be what others portray me to be,
but secretly i get so upset when a person thinks they've got me figured out.
this one girl told me i always look angry and upset,
but this boy says I'm always happy and smiling.
i don't like too much attention
but i do like to be acknowledged.
i tend to be really pessimistic,
but i encourage everyone to have a positive outlook.
i don't ever think lying is okay or justified,
but i sometimes lie for no reason and find ways to justify it.
I've been called beautiful and gorgeous more times than i could count,
but I'm so self conscious i can't even wear my hair pulled back.
i can't stay focused or pay attention for the life of me,
but i catch a fit if i feel I'm being ignored...

-maybe one day i'll be what the world wants me to be

song: Tegan and Sara- "back in your head"